Saturday, 10 October 2009

Stop Whining

Hello again all pretty ladies in this lovely universe.. I'm in a bad mood when i wrote this, i don't know why does everything seems so screwed up and i've been in a bad mood for days..
Okay maybe all of u have known tat am a freshmen in college & am still in (what so so called) adaptation period from senior high 2 college life.. But all of d assignment has make me want to vomit all d subject tat i've accepted.. I know I sounds pathetic but thiz is what i feel..
In Addition one of my old friend came from Jogjakarta only for a nite but i cud't meet her b'coz i had to attend Accounting class..
And all my friend may think am such a bad friend coz i forgot their b'day.. I apologize to all chikaz am not forgetting u guys i juz can't handle thiz situation
U can through d storm princess juz chill out & gimme some pose!!!! =D

Tuesday, 29 September 2009

How's ya holiday Duuuude???!!!!!!!!!!!!!

th bridge, rocks & my cousin miftah ( i was also there)
monkey business

it's me (taken by my lil' cousin Nisa)

This is the cute nisaa..

also there GOOSEbump.. =)

Hey peeps ;)!!!!!! so nice to meet u again, anyway how's ur holiday???????? I hope most of u had a great holiday...
My own holiday was kinda amazing, so many quality time with my big family.. Meeting relatives that i never or rarely met before... I really enjoyed every minute of this holiday trip..
Here are sum pics from my holiday, not much b'coz i wasn't bring my battery charger..
Enjoy it peeps and Happy Idul Fitri 1 Syawal 1430 H......
X.O.X.O ;)

Saturday, 12 September 2009

How's College?????

Just like people in upper east side.. I , myself has started my college life too.. As Blair goes to NYU, Serena goes to Brown and I go to TSM..
Is there anybody who doesn't know TSM??
Alright, i've told u once and i'mma tell u once again..
It's Trisakti School of Management...
And here are some of my new besties pics..
Let's have a look!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, 27 August 2009

The Return of Myself

Heyy chikaz!!!!!!!

It feels like a million years not updating my blog.. ok, i just want to tell that i'm still here dealing with my oh so ( pretend to be ) perfect life... And now i'm still in a long term holiday since my first class at Trisakti School Management start on Sept 7th
And book help me alot to fill my empty brain, yesss along this holiday i just keep reading many-many books..

FYI : Frowner has gone from my life now there's only Smiler but i still use the name for my blog to remind me about her

And here are the books that i thought my best collection
Brekfast at Tiffany's by Truman Capote
The secret by Rhonda Bryne
The Secret of Mental Magic by Vernon Howard

Friday, 24 July 2009

Indonesian must have fashion item

LOL!!!!! yesss, proud to be Indonesian coz we have such an amazing clothes named KEBAYA.. This dress has super feminine cut and it can show our body contour perfectly so we'll look more gracefull.. Almost every Indonesian women have it.. Proud of our Nation, proud to wear KEBAYA

Saturday, 18 July 2009

We'r not afraid, We won't let Indonesia go down

Still criticizing about d terrorism, i just wanna say that i'm proud to be Indonesian.. I ain't afraid of terrorist, even d fact is u're invisible till now.. Let's repeat one more time


Friday, 17 July 2009

Pray For our Nation

I almost got heart attack today, masya Allah another blast in Jakarta AGAIN!!!!!!!!!
After all that our police had done,Ritz Carlton hotel and JW Marriot hotel were bombed.. Bloody hell, for god' sake u terrorist u won't beat us.. we all gather and unite as a nation support our beloved president to fight against terrorism till death.. We ain't fear with bomb we fear of god and we wish to make world in peace..

Here's picture of Ritz Carlton after d blast

Thursday, 16 July 2009

The Secret

A long term holiday has made my brain got freeze, so i decided to read more in order to make it works again.. I know i am so late to read this book but yeah i want to discuss about "THE SECRET" , this book is really amazing i helps me built the optimism to the way of life... It makes me see the world from the nicer side and make me realize that life isn't that hard but it's actually ourselves that make it harder..


Love, XOXO.....

Finally own it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Smile, smile and smile, yeah i'm happy right now... Finally i have a new notebook, i'll post the photo soon..

Tuesday, 7 July 2009

Have u voted today?

This is the 1st election of my life i'am so excited to vote our next president.. Hope indonesian people make the right decision that will lead us to be a better country.. Please vote if u care about our future, our children and our country, let's vote for our country chikas!!!

Tuesday, 16 June 2009


School's Farewell party today, so sad yet so excited.. All d girls n d guys were really g0od lo0king, n0t to menti0n!!!
D butterfly inside my st0mach came up when s0me 0ne named "D" performed twice 0n stage, 1st d acoustic n 2nd d full band.. I really enj0yed his performance, he lo0ked so freaking damn h0t.. I swear if i didn't remember that he has a gf, i must had flirted 0n him.. 1st time i had a feeling for him when i was in d 11th grade but he ch0osed an0ther girl n br0ke my heart since that day d feeling for him was vanish.. But then, today i felt s0mething sparkling 0n my heart.. I've a crush 0n him!!

Sunday, 14 June 2009

Miss Jinjing

Have u read the b0ok "MISS JINJING BELANJA SAMPAI MATI" or "MISS JINJING NGRUMPI SAMPAI PAGI"? These bo0k really represent our h0bby as a girl, lol.. The first time i knew about these b0ok i th0ught it'd be an0ther c0nfessi0ns of shopaholic but these b0ok are totally different.. U have to read it urself to kn0w what's the different, i bet these b0ok g0nna make feel MUPENG!!!


Tuesday, 9 June 2009

Out of order

Sorry for vanishing for a while.. My notebook is out of order, i make this post using my phone.. Frowner can't live without blog, chictopia or polyvore.. Miss u so much dear notebook..
Sorry for vanishing for a while.. My notebook is out of order, i make this post using my phone.. Frowner can't live without blog, chictopia or polyvore.. Miss u so much dear notebook..

Thursday, 4 June 2009

MLM & a Nutsy

I did several things today 'n it was a bit odd!!! I have an appointment with my besty at 10.00am @ fast food restaurant.. When we're in the meeting (my besty was explaining about the MLM business that she's joining) All of a sudden came a phsyco woman wearing daster.. 'N she was wondering what we were talking about.. I was afraid 'n got freeze, i just stared with my besty.. Then d woman left us 'n start to disturb other people.. Thanks Goodness d security came 'n threw d woman out.

I wore :

vintage vest, pink tee matahari, unbranded tartan legging ITC Mangga Dua, bag Yogyakarta (from my besty V) , random bracelet from my besty, mom's sneakers..

Monday, 25 May 2009

Into Denim

After a very long time not wearing any jeans today i'm into my old waisted jeans 'n denim flats.. I'm dressing so comfy cuz i'm gonna go with mommy to find material for making kebaya for my graduation day..
Imagine I have Prom...

What i wore
cream shirt : unbranded
waisted jeans : yellow line
bag : Bali
denim flats : Elle
bracelet : my aunt

Saturday, 23 May 2009

Guilty Pleasure

Today, Frowner had an interview for Trisakti.. After d interview Frowner went to Senayan City, finally i got eye fresher.. N my feet was so damn hurt by walking ar0und d mall.. Suddenly Frowner forgot that i've to save m0ney this m0nth n Frowner bought this freakin' gorgeous leather tote bag @ Charles&Keith..
N0 regrets at all!!!!!!! Hoho..

What i wore was totally inspired by Blair Waldorf..
Top : Orange
Skirt : Avenue
Belt : Vintage
Bag : Hana collection @ Debenhams

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

Deadly Bored

SOS, Frowner is soooooooo bored....... Please anybody could help???????????? Hate this kinda' life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, 15 May 2009

Merci Mommy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Even this month i have to save money n i can't do monthly shopping like usual but ma' mommy has been soooooooo generous by giving Frowner new cuff 'n necklace.....

Here they are:

Ain't they sooooo gorgeous?????????????

seeing my future

Today smiler headed to university, a lil' bit nerve racking & excited coz i know ma' future is being decided... Smiler applies to Trisakti School of Management, n i hope it'll guide to da highest place of ma' career..

This is what i wore today

  • tartan shirt: ITC Mangga Dua
  • Wide Belt : ITC Mangga Dua
  • Black Patent shoes : Mondo by Heatwave

Tuesday, 12 May 2009

Quote of the day

"Frustration, although quite painful at times, is a very positive and essential part of success."
Bo Bennett

I wish i could come

Smiler really wanna come to The Launching Party of B'coz many things will be there n I really wanna see the garage sale by mitchybelle...... Poor Smiler, she has to save money for buying new notebook... N smiler has to stay focus on it....

Saturday, 9 May 2009

Sense of Frowner

flower top : Fashion Park
grey legging : ITC Mangga Dua
bangle : ITC Mangga Dua
Bag : Emsio
btw forget the shoes but i'm gonna use wedges from calliope

Sense of Smiler

top : orange
skirt: ITC BSD
necklace : Bali
headband : ITC Mangga Dua
shoes : Passer Baroe

Friday, 8 May 2009

Things to do

These are few things that smiler has to do at least for this month
  • Saving more money for buying new notebook
  • Gaining my weight 3-4 kilograms more (i lost 2 kilograms cause of sick)
  • Helping mom while @ home

Smiler's big Crush

It's John Legend.....
His voice yet his personality he's a truly gentleman..
Smiler is in love with John Legend

Thursday, 30 April 2009

Intoducing Frowner

Frowner's here... How's your day? I know life is hard.. Btw, i haven't introduce myself but i know u already know me right... Yess, i'm the "devil" side of Anis Rahmantika... By being "devil" life is more fun..
U know u love me.......XOXO

Introducing Smiler

Hey, i'm Smiler..
This is the first time i show up into public.. I wish i could cheer up the world and made this world more colourful.. I'm actually the "angel" side of Anis Rahmantika.. I promise i'll show u my picture on the next post... XOXO

Friday, 24 April 2009

Finally It's done

Finally we've done the National Exam... It feels great & sooooooo glad, and on the last day we decided to relax, have fun & flee...

These are the faces after UN, from left to right : Andhita, Ayu, Envira, Myself and Gina
Ooooooopsie.... Sorry Andhita you're out. Lol!!!!!!!

Tuesday, 14 April 2009

Get Closer

Olla everyone!!!!!!
For all of u fellas the 12th grader we're getting closer to the NATIONAL EXAM... How's your preparation? Never thought that time could run as fast as this, seems like yesterday i just had my first footstep on SMAN DOETA..
I'm gonna miss this high..
Gotta sleep now, XOXO.............

Quote of the day

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile and finds in your presence that life is worth while. So when you are lonely, remember it's true Somebody somewhere is thinking of you.
Unknown Author

Love Quote

It takes a minute to like someone, and hour to love someone, but to forget someone takes a life time.

Unknown Author

Thursday, 9 April 2009

The last words

It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.
I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.
She said, "I miss you."
I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."
She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine.
I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."
Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.
Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"
Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home.
Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.
But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."
We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.
We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.
She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."
With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.
She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."
I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"
I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"
I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.
Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain would go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide.
But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years' feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind.
The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence.
I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."
She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her.
I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.
She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words

Fashion Spread

Friday, 3 April 2009

I heart Strawberry

It's red, cute and sooooooooooooo fresh.... How I really love strawberry..
Like the beatles said
Strawberry fields forever
"Let me take you down
cause I'm going to strawberry fields
Nothing is real and nothing to get hung about
Strawberry fields forever
Strawberry fields forever
strawberry fields forever "

Wednesday, 1 April 2009

Emotions test

Do you have a healthy attitude towards your emotions?

For your every 'no' answer, add 1 to your score.
  1. Do you feel guilty if you cry in public?
  2. Do you think crying is a sign of weakness?
  3. Do you think men and boys should be encouraged to hide their tears?
  4. Do you feel embarrassed if you find yourself crying while watching a film or reading a book?
  5. Would you try to hold back your tears if you were attending a funeral?
  6. Would you distrust a politician who shed tears in public?
  7. Do you think that tears are an unnecessary expression of emotion?
  8. Do you always try to hide your disappointment?
  9. Do you get embarrassed if you see grown men crying?
  10. Would you pretend that you had something in your eyes if you were unexpectedly discovered crying?
  11. Do you always try to hide your anger?

For your every 'yes' answer, add 1 to your score

  1. Do you tend to brood about things which make you angry?
  2. Does your temper even get out of control?
  3. Has your temper even got you in trouble?
  4. Do you believe that it does you good to get rid of your anger?
  5. Would you allow someone to comfort you if you were crying?
  6. Do you get cross quite easily?
  7. Do you touch someone you love at least once a day?
  8. Do you enjoy physical signs of affection?
  9. Do you ever get broody when you see small babies?
  10. Would you happily hold hands in public with someone you cared for?
  11. Do you enjoy being massaged?
  12. Do you regularly tell those whom you love how you feel?
  13. Have you ever had a pet of which you were very fond?
  14. Do you enjoy being kissed and hugged by people you love?
  15. Do you ever laugh out loud when you are watching funny films?
  16. Do you ever tap your feet while listening to Music?
  17. Do you often have the last clap at concerts, sports events and the like?
  18. Do you ever shout encouragement to sports or TV heroes?
  19. Can you remember when you last really laughed and enjoyed yourself?

Score 17 to 30
Your attitude towards your emotions is a healthy one. You aren't ashamed to let your emotions show occasionally, and you will undoubtedly be much healthier because of this attitude. You are likely to be a good social advisor.

Score 8 to 16
You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show, when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face. Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

Score 7 or less
You are definitely very uptight. You really do need to allow your emotions flow out a little. There isn't any thing really wrong in allowing people to know how you feel.

Monday, 30 March 2009

40 Things girl should know about boy

  1. A guy can like u for a minute 'n then forget u afterwards

  2. Guys maybe flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about

  3. When a guy really likes u, he'll disregard all your bad characteristic

  4. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile

  5. Guys hate it when u talk about your ex-boyfriend

  6. Guys cry

  7. Guys can never dream n hope too much

  8. When u touch a guy's heart there's no turning back

  9. Guys go crazy when a girl touch their hand

  10. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer they talk to a girl they really like

  11. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow"

  12. Guys love their mom

  13. If a guy tells u he loves u once in a lifetime, he does

  14. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him but this doesn't mean that the guy likes her

  15. Guys are very open about themselves

  16. No guy is bad when he is courting

  17. A guy finds way to keep u off from linking with someone else

  18. Guys can't keep secrets the girls tell him

  19. Guys' fantasies are unlimited

  20. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does

  21. A guy has to experience rejection, b'coz if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love 'n hurt, he won't be mature 'n grow up

  22. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. U'll probably see that he's nervous

  23. When a guy loves u, bring out the best in him

  24. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him

  25. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something

  26. Guys like femininity not feebleness

  27. Guys love girls who can cook or bake, they'll love u regardless

  28. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage

  29. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls

  30. Guys really think that girl are strange 'n have unpredictable decisions

  31. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are, unlike girls

  32. Guy's weakest point is at the knee

  33. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it
  34. When a guy looks at u, either he's amazed by u or he's criticizing u
  35. When u catch him cheating on u 'n he asked for a 2nd chance, give it to him. But when u catch him again 'n he asks for another chance, ignore him
  36. Guys love u more than u love them. If they are serious in your relationship
  37. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl
  38. When a guy tells u he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells it to another girl
  39. U can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain where he cries in front of u
  40. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read


Hi everyone, how're u doing?
Sorry for hiding for a while, i was just so lazy to write on.............
And now i come up with new energy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Few days ago i just realize that i'm 18 (hey, where've u been?)..
I know it's just too late, but never think that growing up can be as hard as this..
From now on i'm gonna be who i am & face it with my head held high..

I honestly don't know what d hell i'm talking about??????????????????????

Ciao Fellas........

Tuesday, 24 March 2009

20 Things Boy Doesn't Know About Girl

  1. There's no such things as too many shoes
  2. We love hugs. It may sound cheesy or whatever but it's true. We like being close to u
  3. All we want to know is u think we are pretty. Don't forget to tell us
  4. Girls will not seat on any toilet outside their own home or five star hotel
  5. The most painless way to end an argument is Let her win
  6. When a girl plays with your hair, it sometimes means she majorly flirting with u
  7. All girls think they're smarter than her partners in some significant way
  8. If u have something to hide, she'll find it
  9. On a first date, girl never order what they really want
  10. More than a half surveyed females between 18&25 would prefer to be run over by truck than be fat
  11. When a girl tells u her problem, she doesn't want u to offer solutions
  12. If your girlfriend is mad at u, give her free time to cool off. Then come up with a cute way to say sorry, like putting roses in her locker with a little sticky way note that say "sorry baby"
  13. A little teasing is fine, but make they know u are joking
  14. We don't intentionally try n make jealous but we do think it's cute when u are
  15. If u ask out a girl n she says "let me think about it" or "i don't know". Then she really think about it. Don't ask her again that day, but don't wait so long. She'll think it was a joke or u forgot
  16. When it's come to call a girl, try opening with something sweet, like "hey sweetheart" or "i miss u today"
  17. Don't take a girl to a concert u really want to see, she'll just want to leave early
  18. Once in a while, let us pick the movie n don't complain about it
  19. Girls think it's funny when u act gay as long as they know u're not
  20. Buying a present for your girlfriend? She'll hate it if she finds out u took along another girl to help pick it up

Friday, 20 March 2009

My Favourite Fashion Icon

Blair Waldorf!!!!!
Her character maybe isn't really nice, but her fashion sense is super kawaii..
Yes, her style is preppy,chic, and girly.. Her hair is always polish..
Well, i might not copy her style b'coz it's so Upper Eastside.. Just imagine i have money for style like that..